DANK
BAR
KEIT

​​Dank​barkeit.

Gratitude.

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Gratitude is one of my most important tools.

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JFBI

Just Fucking Be It !

That was my life's motto for some time.

There was contraction and pain of not being good enough attached to that.

So I dropped it.​

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Feeling more free now.

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I am here.

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It's me.

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I am just my self.

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Being My Self.

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That's my Super Power.

Living my Life.

Going with the flow.

Being the Champion Weirdo Alchemist that I am and who resonates deeplywith this song and which might go along with it quite nicely. 

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Ah, why am I writing this?​

Ah, and why am I using sometimes "This One here" instead of "me / myself / I"?

I don't know.

I just feel like it.

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More and more I let go of the idea of a Self.

Even more so of the idea of a fixed self.

 

I basically use „this one here“ and „I“ synonymously.

 

So, why am I writing here?

 

I feel the need to express myself and currently words and writing are my favourite way of expressing myself.

 

I am basically writing only for myself and do not care at the moment about making this bigger than this.

 

Sometimes I write in German, the language of my Personality.

Sometimes I write in English, the language of my Soul.

And I just love writing in English and love the dramatic aspect of it.

 

Let’s see if at some point in time another language might enter the picture.

I guess it will be Spanish.

All leads and my Spotify Playlists direct to that since sooo many years.

 

Sometimes I send my links to my friends, sometimes I don’t.

 

I love reading my own content from time to time and remember:

Ah, funny, back then my conscious experience was like that.

Nice to see that it has evolved.

 

One big reason came up very recently in my life when I got deeper into my Human Design in May 2025. So far that map has helped me the most to understand my self.

 

My Incarnation Cross is the Right angle cross of maya (61/62 | 32/42)

And it was analysed beautifully here beautifully by a woman I do not know:

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• Gate 32: Continuity / Fear of Failure

• Gate 42: Growth / Finishing Shit

• Gate 61: Mystery / Questioning Everything

• Gate 62: Details / Precision / Explaining It All

 

1. Call bullshit instantly on ideas or projects that won't last (Gate 32 has zero patience for flimsy).

2. Drag things kicking and screaming across the finish line if necessary (Gate 42 needs that closure).

3. Fearlessly poke around in the existential 'why' questions that make others squirm (Gate 61 likes it weird).

4. Organize and spit out facts and details with a precision that could frankly be weaponized (Gate 62 doesn't do 'vague').

 

Ride the wave of unknowing like a champion weirdo.

 

A lovely blend. Sounds like fun, right? Let's see how this glorious mess might play out when you're just trying to pay rent and find decent coffee.

 

You're the weirdly effective blend of pragmatic evaluator + dedicated closer + detail guru, ideally working on something that doesn't make your soul want to shrivel up.

You build solid shit. 

 

It means chilling TF out about needing all the answers right now for Gate 61, finding the juice in the mystery itself, and letting those weird insights percolate without forcing them into neat boxes.

 

And in the Book of Destinies by Chetan Parkyn it says this:

 

Your Life Theme is to describe everything that happens in your world.

 

You do this by observing the processes of growth and change and relating them to the underlying principles at work in our universe.

You always know at least two ways of assessing and describing the same thing.

 

Your meditation is to appreciate that not everything is as it appears, no matter how much you or anyone else thinks it should be.

Scientific and religious belief systems are continuously reinventing themselves, and you have a gift for appreciating and describing alternative possibilities as they shift from one perspective to another.

 

Your openness to shifting perspectives gives you a profound attunement to this great mystery called life and our place in it.

When you are watchful, you can recognize absurdity almost immediately.

Be extremely reluctant to suffer it for any longer than absolutely necessary.

 

You quickly penetrate through “facts,” beliefs, and concepts that are insubstantial or plainly inaccurate.

It is vital that you not only stay determined in your quest for truth but also maintain a healthy sense of humor while doing so.

Life does not have to be a serious affair, as many seem to think, and sometimes you have to stand back and disengage from direct involvement to get your own true perspective.

 

In your life, your poise (Haltung) and changing perceptions are important.

 

With your Unconscious Sun in Gate 61, you have an intensity to know what makes the universe go around, and you often push yourself into unconventional circumstances in your quest to find out.

At times you happen upon startling insights that help rearrange your previous perspectives and open up new realms of possibility and inspired vistas.

 

Constantly seeking, your mind attunes to what you perceive as the truth, but you come to realize that, while your mind gets you close, you cannot actually reach the truth. The harder you try, the less successful your quest for truth will be, until you relax into your Type (Generator) and Authority (Sacral) and allow this personal inner guidance to take you where you really seek to go.

 

Then your journey to realization and fulfillment will be a lot closer than you think!

 

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And since this one here is a Line 1/3 all of life is only dedicated to my owns life experience. So if our paths have crossed:

Nice, hello, let’s enjoy the trip together.

 

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Sometimes my Destiny took and takes me to weird places.

I just abide.

As it is written:

„The Dude abides“

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Humor.

Yep, always.

 

As a powerful Master and Mentor Rex said it to me sitting on a sofa at dinner:

„Humor is a powerful Medicine and I see you are using Humor to help people on their way. Humor is piercing through illusions and the ring of personality.“

 

Ok, back to the WHY.

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There is one more reason why I am writing here.

My girls.

C+I.

 

I am writing here for my girls to read it some time and are able to see me from another side.

 

So this website is a vehicle to cross the limits of Space and Time.

 

That’s about it.

 

Danke.

Thank you.